Live from the Park....

The past few weeks have been an enormous challenge for me. Stress has been a constant companion trying to catch me unaware and either kick me or bite me in the butt when I am not paying attention. Nasty stuff.

There has been so much stuff happening that it has all piled up and it collapsed on me the other night.  I need to do a rundown of it to clear my mind...
  • School started which is always a major hurdle. New paras, new teachers, new classes, the uncertainty is hard for Amy. Breaking in a group of people is hard because of her special needs. Thankfully one of her PCA's from the summer, Kris is working with her in school and she knows what to do. That was a blessing.
  • Katie lost her job and is looking for a new one. She also moved in the midst of that. Money is a huge stresser for us all and it is hard not to get worried. Being a parent and watching your kids go through the hard times is just as hard as when I had to go through them for myself. I so want to spare her but that is how we all learn. Ugh.
  • My dad had bilateral total knee replacement. I am always concerned when anyone I love goes in the hospital especially since Jone's death this year. He was in so much pain and it truly hurts to see it. He is on the upswing now but there is a long ways to go before he is back. This is a major life change for him because he will now be retired. He will no longer be able to do cement work anymore. I am praying for him through the physical, emotional and mental struggles he faces.
  • My knees are not in good shape. It really makes me nervous to even think about my upcoming doctor appointment to see what the issue with them is. I know that losing weight will improve things but that is a long trek and not an immediate solution.
  • i have these stupid gnats all over my kitchen. They started in the kitchen closet and now are all over. I have the day off tomorrow and will do a major cleanup of everything. I found some environmental solutions I am going to try and I hope it works.
  • Other issues have been "building my patience" whether I wanted it or not and I am biting my tongue and gritting my teeth and praying a lot as I face them.
Happy point though is tomorrow is my 31st anniversary. It shakes me to even really think it. Today at work my boss just celebrated her 34th birthday. I told her that she was three when I got married. Whoa! I have come through a lot and had a wonderful man next to me without whom I would not have done it. I love you honey. Happy Anniversary.

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Reina said…
That is a lot going on! I wondered what your dad had done... Kate will be fine; we all go through it and learn and grow. I am glad things are settling for Amy.

You have no idea how much I appreciate you! Congratulations on your anniversary! 31 years is an amazing accomplishement, especially in this day and age, and I pray you and Dane have many more years content in each other!
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