Avalanche...
My life is surrounded by death and sickness at the moment. My husband is dying. My mother-in-law died. That pretty much covers it. I'm going to be a widow sometime in the foreseeable future unless the Lord chooses to heal him. I don't want to lose him. I want to be cranky old people together. I want to be white haired and loving. I want to see the future with him at my side. I never never never imagined that this would happen. Never. I have gained a whole new perspective and appreciation for life. I don't care about things. I don't care about wasting my time and energy on anger or bitterness or unforgiveness. It's not worth it. I'm being held up by a lot of prayers which I'm so grateful for and thank everyone. Lord, please say yes this time again. Please.