With great sadness...

I want to say that my dear friend, Jone, passed away this morning. Her body was just not strong enough to fight anymore and she died.

I talked to a good friend of hers who was there with her. Paula said that all her family and friends were able to be with her which made me happy. Her cousin, who is a priest was able to be there and gave her last rites. When he said 'Amen,' she took her last breath. Paula said it was like she had been holding on and waiting for him.

I had a dream this morning. I was at work and Jone came in. She was there to say goodbye. She told me it was time to leave. I walked around with her for a while as she talked to people and said her farewells and then it was my turn. She told me that it was time to go and hugged me.
I didn't want her to leave. I didn't understand why she thought she had to go. I woke up thinking how real it had been. I wasn't able to get back to sleep so l laid there and prayed for Jone, her family and friends.

When I got up I checked my phone and saw that the caring bridge site had just been updated. I had a sinking feeling and checked it out quickly. I started crying when I saw the words 4:00 am and Jone passed. I stopped reading and closed my phone. I got back on quickly though to see if I was wrong but I wasn't. Jone had passed away at 4:00 am.

I miss her. I miss everything about her. I miss her goofiness. I miss her laughter. I miss her anxiety. I miss her intensity. I miss her jokes. I miss her friendship. I miss her support. I miss her caring. I miss her concern. I miss her.

Jone, knowing you has enriched my life. I thank God that He brought you into my life and that we were friends. I thank Him for letting me say goodbye to you. I love you. I will miss you.

Give Sarah a hug for me.

Comments

Reina said…
Deb, my heart hurts for you. I send youlots and lots of hugs and love. I had a similar dream the morning Carol died (Jim's mom) that we sat together in a waiting room and she shared her heart with me as we said our goodbyes. Sometimes God gives us that opportunity to share with those we love those precious memories that encompass dreams.

I will keep you and Jone's family in my prayers.

~Reina
1:26 PM
Anonymous said…
Deb I am so sorry. I will be thinking about you and your friend's family tonight. Love and prayers, Reiden
8:35 PM
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