Lord, Move or Move Me...

This is the chorus to the song in the title of my blog,

"Lord move in a way, that I've never seen before

Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door

I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore

So Lord move (move), or move me."


Well as I mentioned in my previous blog, I had an awakening and it was the result of being moved like I have not been moved in a long time. I have been dealing with massive frustration with myself because I wanted to change so badly but I just couldn't do it. I want the change to be immediate. I hate the thought that it takes time so I give up in frustration.

Definition of frustration: A deep and chronic sense of insecurity and dissatisfaction arising from unresolved problems or unfulfilled needs.

I read last month and for the first time I took a hard look and began to look at what was causing my frustration. In fact, it was reading this that really intensified my prayers that the Lord would move.

You know how you can read something a zillion times and basically gloss over it. I have read

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me countless times and then something went ping and I suddenly got it or at least a new level of got it.

I know that I can either choose to stop at that moment before critical mass when the frustration is about to explode within me and I can grab the frustration and run with it OR I can stop and say whoa. Lord this is the moment and I need your strength to let it go, to turn and leave the frustration behind me.

I know really well how to grab that frustration and run with it. I am an Olympic Champion Gold Medal winner of the frustration sprint. I have the knowledge, the ability to do it second nature. It is a habit that I have learned. If I learned it I can unlearn it, now the critical part comes because I don't know how to unlearn it. If I can just stop and say, Hey Lord time to do your stuff, I am here. Teach me. He will do it.

It sounds easy and simple. It is except it is a battle royal internally. Self doesn't want to change, Turkey face Satan don't want you to change and it will take all the strength that the Lord has to get through that moment. It can be done though. I am learning to do it.

I heard it takes 21 days to change a habit. I know it to be true because I have done it in the past. It has just been a while. I am working on this. I know that I am weak and will fall on my face at times but I will also get up and learn from it.

One baby step at a time. One moment by moment. One breath by breath.

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