The Point of No Return...
My favorite song from Phantom of the Opera is The Point of No Return. The music sweeps me into the moment as Phantom and Christine come to the point where he is about to declare his love and she rips off his mask. From that point on everything has changed and there is no going back.
My brother recently told me about his moment when he made a choice and it was not the right one. He said it was several years ago but he can pinpoint it exactly as the starting point of when things changed. It was a point of no return. He looks back on it now with sadness and regret.
His story brought to mind a few of my moments which I have regrets about it. I can remember them both very clearly as if they were yesterday. It really confirms to me how important it is to maintain a vigil and stand strong with the things that are important to you.
I have been so conscious of the choices I make and the result of the choice for the past several months. I may have written about it, but I can't recall for sure. I have started to write a few times and can't finish. I hope that you are reading this which means I finished it.
Anyway, my job requires me to be conscious of everything I do because I am held accountable for everything I do and say. I am constantly monitored by recording or via my compute activity. Anything I do online is possible to retrieve. I made a decision a long time ago to not engage in activity online or in email that I would not show to my kids when they were young. My words and actions effect my company. I represent them and I have to be on top of everything I do.
Switch to home mode. I have finally gotten through my head that I need to be as diligent with myself at home because frankly this is my real life. This is the world where I live and I have a lot of influence on my family. If I make a bad choice, it will impact them. Life is hard enough on all of us so why make it worse with my wrong choices. I am talking the ones that I know are wrong but in a moment of weakness I succumb. Sometimes those moments are when I eat a cookie which on its own is not bad but if I don't stop, it will be easier the next time.
Someone whom I dearly love has made some really bad choices and they keep getting worse. They are no longer a person that I recognize. I will always love this one but I just can no longer have contact. They are a stranger. Never would I have imagined that it reach a such a point. I am observer but I can see how much damage has been done to my beloved family and the kids. There is total denial and blindness on their part to how much hurt they are causing to their children. We used to discuss a former family member and shake our head at the behavior. Unfortunately, now this person has become just like this other one and would be awful if I said it. There would be fury and denial of it. Truth is truth.
Choices.
What choices will you make?
My brother recently told me about his moment when he made a choice and it was not the right one. He said it was several years ago but he can pinpoint it exactly as the starting point of when things changed. It was a point of no return. He looks back on it now with sadness and regret.
His story brought to mind a few of my moments which I have regrets about it. I can remember them both very clearly as if they were yesterday. It really confirms to me how important it is to maintain a vigil and stand strong with the things that are important to you.
I have been so conscious of the choices I make and the result of the choice for the past several months. I may have written about it, but I can't recall for sure. I have started to write a few times and can't finish. I hope that you are reading this which means I finished it.
Anyway, my job requires me to be conscious of everything I do because I am held accountable for everything I do and say. I am constantly monitored by recording or via my compute activity. Anything I do online is possible to retrieve. I made a decision a long time ago to not engage in activity online or in email that I would not show to my kids when they were young. My words and actions effect my company. I represent them and I have to be on top of everything I do.
Switch to home mode. I have finally gotten through my head that I need to be as diligent with myself at home because frankly this is my real life. This is the world where I live and I have a lot of influence on my family. If I make a bad choice, it will impact them. Life is hard enough on all of us so why make it worse with my wrong choices. I am talking the ones that I know are wrong but in a moment of weakness I succumb. Sometimes those moments are when I eat a cookie which on its own is not bad but if I don't stop, it will be easier the next time.
Someone whom I dearly love has made some really bad choices and they keep getting worse. They are no longer a person that I recognize. I will always love this one but I just can no longer have contact. They are a stranger. Never would I have imagined that it reach a such a point. I am observer but I can see how much damage has been done to my beloved family and the kids. There is total denial and blindness on their part to how much hurt they are causing to their children. We used to discuss a former family member and shake our head at the behavior. Unfortunately, now this person has become just like this other one and would be awful if I said it. There would be fury and denial of it. Truth is truth.
Choices.
What choices will you make?
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Fortunately, God, in his wisdom gives us the opportunity to learn from those choices, and while some of them may forever be scars (or twinges, aches, or pains), they will also be reminders that we can move forward and heal, albeit sometimes in a different direction than we had previously planned, and that there can still be joy, and hope, and possibility for us. God never leaves us with no options, even if sometimes the only option is to rest on his grace or try to do it alone...
Your insight always gives me such comfort!