Dryer Lint

I am sitting here waiting for the pants and shirts to dry. I emptied the dryer lint. It had remnants of pink, gray, blue, black, white and was soft and fuzzy. It actually is a lot like how I am feeling right now.

School is over. One graduated from grade school and the other one from high school. My heart has little bits and pieces of memories, thoughts, emotions stored away. It all forms into a soft fuzzy blanket of life.

The first day of kindergarten was so nervous for all of us. She sat there so sweetly name tag dangling from her neck waiting patiently for the bus. I had her sit down in the same spot and took her picture on the last day of school. This time a young woman half awake smiling patiently and tolerating her mom's request. I tear up as I write this knowing this may be the last summer she is home. She could leave and never come back. Who knows?

How come there are so many baby books but not any young adult books for parents? I think it would be a helpful item. I feel very awkward right now and unsure of myself with her. I am told this is normal but I don't like it. I don't like being shut out of her life and an after thought. We used to be good friends. Now I am just a mom. I seem to say the wrong things and intrude too much.

We got a puppy named Logan for Amy to have as a companion. I am glad she will have him because when Katie leaves it will be really hard for her. I am going to start praying for her now to build up the strength we will need. I know it will be the hardest thing to say goodbye and drive away from leaving Katie at college.

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